Anniversary

"Being someone’s first love may be great. But to be their last is beyond perfect."

31st October is a Valentine's Day for me

A gift from Heart

Thanks Aleey Andro

Forever you'll stay in my heart

Thanks to Abg Zam, Azrie, Abg Zen & Sham for all the helps and cares.

What is the best thing about being gay? =)

It's just one more thing that makes me unique and different from everyone else..hehe..Being gay is a blessing and a curse. 


When u're gay, u have to make many tough decisions pertaining to yourself as an individual and to other people. It is difficult, but it helps us grow, perhaps on average more than the straight people. We have to be strong, & we have more of a chance to learn, to stretch our comfort boundaries. However, there is also the pain of confusion as a teen which I am sure almost everyone has encountered, possible abandonment by people whom you love, depression & maybe thoughts on suicide & the impossibility of argue with those "fucktards" that don't even believe you have basic human rights as an excuse to deprive u of ur rights. Still, it helps us grow. 


What we live through makes us stronger. And we are stronger than the average man or woman. It makes us who we are. Even though we're not labeled by it, we are still in a way defined by the fact that we are gay.. <peace>

Ask me anything, but I might ask you back...

Harder But Happier

"We lived every day with the knowledge that we could meet a final end at any moment. There was constant excitement and frequent fear." 

- Quoted from a novel by Stephenie Meyer, The Host.

For almost ten weeks, I've been living in a very cruel world that I'd created for myself. I do not blame anyone for any mistake that I made or feel remorse at everything I had done. Yes sometimes I did, but I'm not the "I-will-die-when-Harry Potter-sequence-end" type of person. I think I am a center of gravity for anything that called PROBLEM. Maybe God is trying to show me something - or try to tell me that He still love me. But I gained experience and lesson from every situation that I faced - in a very childish way. Life is such a wonderful treasure.


Why harder? Imagine yourself as Alice in Wonderland surrounded by big and large strange faces. Living in people's place made me felt tiny but I'm not a baby anymore. The process of going through life is always hard (except for Paris Hilton of course). Some might lose hope, some might break down. That is because they didn't see the goodness in life had in store for them - especially the goodness that is so hard to see as such.  It's all a piece of a puzzle, takes time to solve it. That's my reason to be happier.



Please do visit Davey Wavey Blog Page. He is a great funny guy and full with inspirations. I really love him. This is one of his YouTube video that inspires me. Enjoy!

Stay

Well it’s good to hear your voice

I hope you’re doing fine
And if you ever wonder
I’m lonely here tonight
Lost here in this moment
Time keeps slipping by
If I could have just one wish
I’d have you by my side

Well I tried to live without you
But tears fall from my eyes
I’m alone and I feel empty
I’m torn apart inside

I look up at the starts
Hoping you are doing the same
And somehow I feel closer
And I can hear you say

I never wanna lose you
And if I had to I would choose you
So stay, please always stay
You’re the one that I hold on to
My heart would stop without you

I miss you
I need you
And I love you more than I did before
And if today I don’t see your face
Nothing’s changed, no one can take your place
It gets harder everyday
Say you love me more than you did before
And I’m sorry it’s this way
But I’m coming home, I’ll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay,
I WILL STAY...

Hmm...

All I can say now is I'M SORRY. SORRY!

P.S: This might be the shortest post.